Entry #9
Dear Diary,
I’ve been really conflicted. I’m tangled up in a web of excitement and worry. So, get this – there’s this casting call posted on the bulletin board at school, and my heart did this little happy dance when I saw it. It’s like a golden ticket to my dreams, Diary!
But, of course, with every spark of excitement comes the storm of doubt. The casting call seems like this magical opportunity, but what if I’m not good enough? What if I mess up and ruin my chance to shine in the spotlight? It’s like a tornado of insecurities swirling in my head.
And here’s the twist, Diary – Lily is also going for the same casting!
I found out when we were chatting after class, and she was all like, “Wawchan, we should totally audition together! It’ll be so much fun!”
I smiled and agreed, but deep down, I felt this knot of worry forming in my stomach. What if we end up competing against each other? What if one of us gets the role and the other doesn’t? I want to support Lily, and I don’t want our friendship to turn into some dramatic competition. She’s become my first friend in this big city, and I don’t want to risk that for a role.
I feel torn, Diary. On one hand, this casting call is a dream come true, a chance to prove myself as an actress. On the other hand, I’m afraid of the potential strain it might put on my friendship with Lily. It’s like standing at a crossroads, unsure which path to take.
Lily, on the other hand, seems totally confident and excited. She doesn’t seem to have the same worries that are keeping me up at night. She’s been practicing her lines with a smile, and she even offered to help me with mine. I’m envious of her confidence, and it makes me feel like maybe I’m not as good a friend as she is. She’s so supportive and encouraging, while I’m here, second-guessing everything.
As I lay here on Fluffington, trying to sort out my feelings, I realize that maybe I’m putting too much pressure on myself. Lily’s confidence is inspiring, and maybe I should try to channel some of that into my own preparation. Maybe if I focus on doing my best and supporting Lily, everything will fall into place.
Hoping for a smooth casting and a stronger friendship,
Wawchan